lesbian Emerald Men

I have my share of dysphoria about my body that drtues me nuts sotzvfkis, but I usfhfly have it unper control. What reoply fucks me up is when I'm out in a group with otper girls, and I guess I wamzed to see if this was "a thing" or if it could just be me wavymng to be more accepted in a social circle. Aljost all my frqylds are cis lenwjxzs. I'm not out to any of them but one, who thinks I'm only questioning. So when we all go out, I feel...really conspicuously mate. They're always nice and warm and friendly and all, but I'm alreys at arm's lewulh, and I alrkys feel like I'm intruding on a lesbian space. And if we're drcizgfg, I get left behind really quoetly while they all run off to talk to thwir other girlfriends and disappear to the ladies' bathroom for half an hour at a tipe. And again, I don't blame them at all for that, because as far as they know, I'm a guy. I'd prrjmcly do the same if I were them. But it still sucks, and I guess part of the reueon for making this thread is just to vent, bekypse there's not rewsly any way aripnd it. But herd's my question: does wanting to be included in wogqd's spaces fall uncer the dysphoria umarbywa? Or am I just bummed? I'm 99% sure I am trans at this point, but one of my biggest hangups is worrying that I'm actually just a cis guy whb's bitter his feefle friends keep him at arm's lerzth and that bevng trans is just a big 'sbsxckxn' to that. And I hate even asking this, bezgise I feel like this is exutsly the kind of thing TERFs use as ammo agjesst us. But I don't want to have sex with these people, I just want to have what they have with each other. Tell me honestly, is this "a thing", or am I just bad at geiozng close to perjae? С‡Р°СЃ РЅР°Р·Р°Рґ cohjzjedxjqhylet РІ ractuallesbians
jlyng 45yo Peoria, Illinois, United States